trouble sleeping

tremblements de coeur et de terre

Tuesday, March 30, 2004

now that top model is over for this season, i got suckered into watching 24 tonight in its time slot. it was really disturbing. everyone inside this quarantined hotel was exposed to the virus, and some people started showing symptoms, which were excessive bleeding from the nose and mouth. it freaked me out because three years ago, i had this dream: i was bleeding profusely from the nose and i knew i was going to die soon. i was inside my house and the only thing i wanted was to go outside and look at the sky... and i was rushing to the door despite people trying to stop me and i made it outside. the colors were all so bright: bright red, bright green, bright bright blue [...]

then i woke up from my dream and i had a bloody nose. i hadn't had one in years, not since i'd had my nerves pinched as a kid, and considering the dream i'd just had, i was insanely freaked out that i was bleeding. and it wouldn't stop! it wouldn't stop bleeding for over three hours and i thought i was going to die. however, it finally stopped and i spent the rest of the day lying in bed, exhausted from the loss of blood. it was an awful experience. watching it play out on tonight's episode of 24 was privately horrifying.

Sunday, March 28, 2004

last night i dreamt that my three famous roommates who i think were drew barrymore, lucy liu, and cameron diaz (ick) had disappeared and all these authorities came to my apartment with their pink keys. they came in and brought me a new roommate, who was tessa cendejas, this girl i've gone to school with since fifth grade. i almost mowed her down in the humanities parking lot last week!

well, i got upset because i didn't want tessa as my roommate so i went searching in this giant university type building looking for my poetry class for new roommates, and on my quest i had to run through a dining room full of prison inmates who kept trying to touch my pigtails. i never actually got to my poetry class but i had the distinct feeling i'd been to it before in another dream. i also saw a slew of drama people from high school and they looked exactly the same but they all talked to me in korean.

Sunday, March 14, 2004

i dreamt that i went into this tech thrift store and ben kingsley was there selling ataris!!